Baha

Ever get that feeling when you can't decide what to do and it keeps up really late at night?
I'm on my way of graduating this year, planning to do a very tech thesis, and applying to university for industrial design...wait...what? Me? Industrial design? Who am I kidding!

Yes, I like interesting designs and kitchen appliances and chairs, but I don't buy these things. I'm not a big spender on anything of the kind (except for makeup and skincare product and clothes). I'm so confused!

When I look at artists like Nancy and Tran, and Melissa and Amy Sol , I'm so drawn to their pictures! And what I think is, "oh, I wish I can do that!" To paint flowers and wide eyed girls and furry animals and birds and bees again, :( I even wish I knew a way of throwing my tech into it.
But instead I have to concentrate on researching ergonomics and design. That's fun too.... but not as fun as thinking hippy-lovely.

I'm driven to make a good living. People say money isn't everything and won't make people happy. I already know in the long run I won't be happy, but at the moment I'm refusing to believe that. Arg...parents pushes it even more.
The voice in the back of my head is saying, "Why can't you paint what you like, anndd make a living too?"
"Because I'm chicken. I'm not confident enough to start painting again."

It's so confusing. I love love love packaging design too! I love children books. I love painting on silk. I love birds and scientific nature illustrations and insects and flowers! I love my isometrics and exploding clock parts! I love business cards designs! I would love love to learn more about those manly engineering things, and how things work! I love my nuts and bolts! I love cellphone designs! and I love writing stories!

What on earth am I going to do.
It's just not possible to do everything. I don't even know where I should be heading towards first, wahh. I don't even know if I have enough talent and skills to do anything perfect. Geez, I just want to bury my head under a pillow now and hope to see the future in my crystal ball.

Maybe I need to go see a fortune teller, lol :)

Fun at the TTC

Go Flamorse, GO!

live long and prosper

Hello everyone! It's finally summer! I'm currently working as an intern at the TTC doing technical illustrations for them (yay!). This is my first illustration full time job ever! The only other full time job I ever had was working as a chef assistant at a boy's dorm/church lol.

I'm just working on updating my website a bit, have a few pictures to add. And still painting that silk floral painting. I want to start a series of silk paintings now, I'm slowly getting the hang of this fabric (yes!!). It's a little tricky, but I just love the rich colours when it's painted on thickly. I have yet to experiment with a lighter wash of colour...maybe on an offwhite silk next time ;)

I just had a show at the Sleeping Giant. That was really fun! Until next time, thanks for looking :)

-chau

Craziness

Nebulizer cutaway I'm working on for school. The blue arrows represent airflow!

Busy busy busy. I'm single again too, lol. I have no luck in that department at all. I guess one must loose something to gain another thing. We can't have it all! :)

On a happy note, I got in contact with an art director at The Hive in toronto! This is going be my first "contract and pro" job I think lol. I haven't really made a contract with the Grattan company because my client was super nice and I feel like I could trust them after the first job I did for them. This one is another big job for me! I'm so thankful of Ben Weeks and Kathyrn Adams, my teacher who was so kind and was like, "Don't panic! I'll help you!" I had sent Ben Weeks my resume for co-op, and had an interview appointment with him. But I was accepted by the TTC before I even got a chance to meet him *tear*! Then he gave my contact to the art director at The Hive.

It's so scary and crazy! My mind was going crazy on my train ride back to Toronto today, it was really hard to sit still. I wonder how long my luck wil last.... I was sure I was going to run out of luck after the Grattan fastener products jobs. Nonetheless, I'm so so so thankful for this opportunity that I'm going insane hahah! I'm going to try to do my best for this small job! ;) I'll keep it a surprise for now. I'll do my best to have a more steady update! Until next time!!!!

PS: Ahhh I have to catch up with school work too haha, oh dear me. It's going to be painful month for me. Happy and painful...sounds like I'm going to go into labour or something :S

AJA! FIGHTING :D

-chau

http://chauleart.com


:)

Peonies

Hello Hello!
It's been a while since I've updated :) I'm so happy to say that my Fall semester is over and it's officially winter break!! YES! One whole month of relaxing and no stress :D

I'm working a new painting. This is just the beginning of the sketch. Probably will get rid of the bunnies, and add butterflies or kittens instead, heh. Really been loving peonies and colourful irises! Also, I just watched a really sad japanese drama last night called BYAKUYAKOU. gahhhh, life is so unfair! It made me cry a lot, even though I watched it with spanish subtitles and didn't understand it very much. IT still made me cry! That song Kage, sung by Kou Shibasaki, is the sweet and saddest song ever! I like to listen to the song anyways, and draw to it!
It will be painted on a gold-coloured silk :3 just like old times!



Oooh! And I got an early christmas gift from my cousin in germany! :D Allll sorts of delicious chocolates and soft mouse-shaped candy, and new paintbrush! If there's one thing you should do when you go to germany, is to EAT! lol seriously, Germany and Paris are my favourite places to eat! Nothing beats their food. Mmmmm, i'm craving for hamburg's curry sausages now *mouth waters*

Mercy!

Sorry, haven't been updating lately. It's been crazy at school. I'm so busy with school work and finding a co-op job :( scary to think that I have only one more year before I graduate! Time to grow up, I guess lol.
Here's some projects I've been working on. Digital is not my strength, but I tried...really hard hahaha~


it's the A130 lab!


mmmm cellular bento box of sugary goodness....


i was following a photoshop tutorial online, but used a rooster instead haha because roosters are awesome. I love this site!

On a more exciting note! I sold one of my paintings to a girl name Sarah <3

Bye Amber Eyes :( you were my favourite girl!!! muah

More traditional media paintings coming soooon :)
Thanks for reading!

"Midnight Sun"

A kindaaa style I'm trying to exploring right now. I felt so much more free to paint like this. Kinda messy, kinda not, I'm not sure. It's been years since I actually finger painted lol. THis is a collage of string and nice thick rice paper I drew with pencil on and tore apart.

Midnight Sun. I read too much Twilight/Stephanie Meyer over the summer heh kinda obsessed with it right now <3
SHe's not Edward, but she's my light at night.

Not sure where to go with this painting.... hmmm lol we'll see. I love gold paint. I would paint myself with it if it wasn't bad for your skin hahaha. I felt like the golden crazy god-like bad guy with golden skin from the movie 300!

"Cherry Blossom Girl"

Oh MAN! I love listening to AIR!! Their music is so dreamy!
It's like the essence of feeling and being love in the liquid form of music!! I dont know why liquid, but it's so delicious and I can totally daydream to Air music lol. mmmmm lyrical love and happiness! I could use a dosage of that and some cuddling any day!

Also, thanks to my friends Hyelee, Lena, and K.T Phan to taking pictures at my mini exhibit! ^_^




She's a cherry blossom tree!
I was so inspired after that day my dad drove me to High Park to see the beautiful japanese cherry blossom trees in full bloom! The ground was covered in white petals, it was AMAZING! I felt like I died and went to heaven. Seriously, that's what my heaven would look like ^_^ so lovely...

Always With Alesund, Norway

Here's a painting I did over the summer.
I really miss Norway :( It was beautiful, I could lie there in the sun all day in the mountains.